Detachment from the Goal
5th March 2024, I am sitting in my hostel room and something clicked me, its been bugging me for months now as if something is missing or I am incomplete can't tell exactly but I have a vague idea that I am in search for attention or care or let's address love from someone particular. Now I thought to myself why am I not self sufficient for myself to convince that I should live on, why even I am searching for it so desperately that and all I do all day is find reasons to punish myself giving by thinking of ways I could have achieved that if I did that differently, but does it really even help it tells me that I am capable of doing things in a right way but at that point i don't because I am not that so I need some change, okay what change. I have read it many times like in the book "Think like a Monk" or "Subtle art of not giving a F**k" that its the thinking too much about the goal or in Mark's language giving too much fuck about things is the pro...